One Year Later

Yesterday was one year since we said good bye to our precious boy Charlie. 

If you are a new friend or you missed out on that part of our journey you can read about it here. 

You have all been so wonderfully supportive and many of you have asked how I am going. I am going well. It has been tough at times and I did have another miscarriage not long after Charlie's birth but the doctors and specialists could find no reasons why I was miscarrying. The last specialist we saw advised that I give my body a rest for about 6 months. So we did. 

Having 3 miscarriages in 12 months, two of them being in the 2nd trimester was hard. I lost a lot of blood with those two miscarriages and it is only now that I am feeling better that I realise just how tired my body was.

I am glad that we had a break but it wasn't easy to just wait. 

Our human nature urges us to get in and fix the problem not sit back and wait, combine that with the pressure of a ticking body clock and my desire to have a few more babies, not just one made the waiting very hard!

So we are trying to have a baby again and I am trying very hard not to become consumed by the process and the desire. 

The new business has been a great project for me to focus on and channel my energy into. It is a blessing to be able to be doing something I love and having the flexibility to be around for our son when he gets home from school and during the holidays is fantastic.

Thanks for being around when I've needed you and for stopping by and visiting me. Thanks to all of you who emailed me to check on how I was. 

I would appreciate your prayers as we try to have a baby, twins would be just fine :-) and would love to hear any advice you may have.

Hope you all have a wonderful week!

xx

Grieving

Grief is a multi-faceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something to which a bond was formed. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, it also has physical, cognitive, behavioral, social, and philosophical dimensions. While the terms are often used interchangeably, bereavement often refers to the state of loss, and grief to the reaction to loss.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

There are stages of grieving and everyone grieves differently.

 

As part of my grieving I wrote my last post. I wasn’t being particularly brave or strong when I wrote it. I cried as I typed and at times I had to stop writing and let my tears flow free before I could continue. Putting my experience in writing was a step that I needed to take so that I could move on a bit further through my grief.

 

Once I had written about my experience I was able to stop remembering every detail just in case I forgot. I knew I could go back and read it whenever I needed to.

 

Each day gets easier and each day I have been feeling stronger physically, spiritually and emotionally. I am so thankful that I was able to take time to be alone and to rest, to heal. I am glad that I didn’t have to rush back into society and act normal!

 

Next week I am going back to work and I am ready to try again!

During these last weeks the Lord has shown me how much I have to be thankful for and how blessed I am. I have discovered just how much good there is in the world and how important relationships are.

 

Thank you for all of your kind words, your thoughts, support and prayers. Each and every comment helped me along in my recovery and made me feel cared for,

it has made me realise how important a kind word can be and I pray that I will be able to bless others the way that you have all blessed me.

 

Nellie

xx